what if there was a love called otherwise?

Why do we have only one heart?  We could have learned to love more beloveds – equally.  It is bitter to think that there will come a time in our lives when we have to deal with one of the troubles of the heart - to choose between love and…love.  Between two people you have chosen to love exceedingly.    It is troubling and confusing.  Painful.  Hard.  Even your life could crumble from confusion.  You’ll choose one but what about the other?  And often times, the answers for this question are the realities you wish you could have lived without.  They are right – those people I’ve heard talk – that life is hard especially with love because love often times is the reason that directs the choices of the self to go on living or to do otherwise.  Sometimes – the end of the story is tragic and sad.  It easy to explain love that have built the castles of quotations and the dreams that embody the cantos and chorus of the great poets which we have sheltered the word love itself – but still it is hard falling to it.  Falling in love is a matter not full of simplicity.

But really, if you were to choose between love and love – what would it be?  Would you choose the person you love now instead of the one you have truly loved in the past which you left because you thought that that person doesn’t love you only to find out that he/she has loved you too – and very much – and he/she is coming back…for you?  You have someone now whom you love so much and that person loves you more than anything else too – what then would you do?  What if the only thing you have are thoughts of “if’s” and “if only if’s?”  What would matter then?  Is it a waste to give up the other someone?  What if that someone you are giving up is the one meant for you – would you still choose then even if there’s no way of finding out?  You have learned to embrace the failings of love from someone you thought doesn’t love you but still you stood up, learned to love again and tell your heart that when love fails it is not the end of love but the beginning of a hope – for a life reborn.  And now you have found love again. 

But a love from the past is calling out for you.

What would you do?  And why?

But more important, why do you really have to choose?  If the heart has all the ability to love more than one, as we see in reality, then why would you restrict it from doing so?  And if you’ll do it, what then is the real message and meaning of one of the truths of our humanity – that each of us has only one heart.  If true love, as believed by many, is a fact of life – then does it mean that a person’s true love is only meant for a someone – and not anymore for more "someones?"  Does the cost of love include hurting someone just because, between two loves, you have the capacity to choose even if the reason is drowned in confusion including the painful decision to choose still?

What do we have to do if the only thing we have is to choose?

I do not know.

Perhaps there is an answer.  For this is your story once – or if not then maybe soon.  And this is a fact in reality.   Also, it is one of the mysterious ways of love – sometimes to leave us with neither the courage to choose amidst confusion nor sometimes the strength to deal and cope with the consequences of our choice.  Yes, love is great.  But loving is hard.

I don’t know why I’m saying all this.  Maybe perhaps it was the food I ate when I had my dinner just lately.  Or perhaps it is because this has been my story once also.  Just like you.

Comments

[Tobie marichell]

wow.....story within story....you haved captured feelings of so many in that narrative of yours...thank god its not mine...well should i dare say that love is a culmanation of lots of feelings, and more likely of different interpretations....for me love is overrated...in the end somehow along the way thru self discovery love will always be more or less that waht we expect it to be...again according to your own interpretation...the heart is capable of loving way to many...but devotion should always be to a single soul...thats my take on that...again im talking like this because i had nothing this breakfast...hehehe

[Mikko]

dolabs i thought this blog is for our brother seminarians... pero astig ah may nag comment! mas damo, mas maogma! maurag talaga! Love? its just a creation of our mind by which we are subject for it. love exists because of the appreciation of our mind! padi, pasencya lain ako naka daong sa sea port san topic mo... sa masunod madaong na ako! pasencya!

To tobie marichell: astig ka! i think you love with a love that is more than love! hehehe

[Mikko]

to dolabs... Love is indeed a bloody hell hard thing to do! A bloody marry hard to fall. Let it come and let it be entertained! For its because of love we become the real we... ang pagmamahal ay isang pag suko at pag bukas ng sarili sa minamahal. At tanging pag bubukas lamang magkakaroon ng buhay at kahulugan ang pag mamahal. Kaya kung ikaw ay nagmamahal ang ikaw ay mas nagiging ikaw! Ito ang aking storya sa loob ng buhay pagmamahalan! My comment maybe uncharted reasoning to this topic but still there is a connection! hahaha! buje!

[sorsogon]

ini lang masasabi ko saimo DOLABs? BALDO? Don't turn your back to love when it's already in front of you. Don't drive it away from you, because if you do, someday, you'll think again, why you let love flew when it was there next to you."

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