what if i ask you the question for the reason of my asking?

What is the reason behind a reason?
And why is there confusion in confusion?

If the purpose of meaning is for meaning to be meaning then why is the reason behind finding meaning seems to somehow create confusions when that meaning is suggested to be within the reason of the purpose of finding that very meaning?

I am confused.  Why?  For if the reason itself is reason, and if purpose itself is purpose, then why still do we have to find meaning in finding the purpose of finding purpose and seeking meaning in knowing that there is reason in reason itself.

I do not say that neither am I meaningless in finding meaning nor unenlightened in finding reason, all I say is that often times all I have is confusion.  And then I see the reason in my confusion.  But then I wonder again, if I can see the reason – sometimes, just sometimes – in the confusions within my wholeness why is it that meaning itself within that very wholeness continues to slip away even if we know that meaning and reason often times are those that which embody purpose itself.  Often times I know purpose, but then I ask what is the purpose of purpose.

When I was looking for answers, I tried to reach the infinite.  But the infinite pushed me back.  I think I am doomed to suffer wondering about the confusion in confusion and the reason behind a reason itself.  But it doesn’t matter, because I have you.  Yes, you.  The you who is reading this seemingly nonsense nonsense.  But I don’t really know if it is nonsense nonsense.  I think it is not, or maybe it is.  But if you find the purpose of purpose, then please let me know.  For sometimes I walk on the streets being lost in wondering about the why of my wondering and also the things I just said.

When you find the reason in reason, don’t keep it to yourself.  I would like to know.

For what is learning not shared?  Just a coal, waiting to be an ash.  The purpose is seen, but not fulfilled.

I say again, I do not have a meaningless mind.  All I have is wonder.

Or perhaps the paradise butterflies of madness.

Oh, I forgot to ask, will there be meaning in the logical identity of meaninglessness in meaninglessness?  If none then isn't it that there is meaning in finding the why of meaninglessness itself? = )

So...what do you say?

(harharhar.parulupa an parulupa = )

Comments

[Mikko]

Ginoo, ginoo, ginoo..... Ma walang galang na po. Ano naman po ang problema kung iyong itanong ang ang iyong pagtatanong saakin? Mas makakabuti pa sa ating dalawa kung tayo ay mag tanungan... Walang problema, ngunit ingatan lang ang pag tangklik sa mga latak ng iba. Subalit, makaka buti nga naman kung iyong itanong ang iyong pagtatanong saakin.... Dito tayo ay masasangkot sa paki kipag kapuwa tao. At dito magssimula ang ating paghanap ng rason sa likod ng rason at pag kilatis ng kalaboan sa kalaboan.

[Mikko]

ikaw nga ba ang dakilang bangaw?

[Noby]

I think i am not in position to answer your question. All I can say.....Alak pa!!!hehe